week 4
Everyone is celebrating training being halfway over. They're all delusional. Its not halfway over until Wednesday. Letitia said during week 3, that training is like one big pressure cooker, and they just keep turning up the heat. She was right. Monday and Tuesday were full of fear for me. Monday night's class was so hot that it was everything I could do to not run out of the room screaming. Somehow I managed to go back into Camel pose because I imagined that my life depended on it. Physically, I don't know if I've ever gone through anything more difficult. During the first couple weeks, I was comparing this experience to one of running a marathon. I was thinking week 3 should be about mile 8 or so, and week 4 should be like mile 13, etc... But early this week I realized that its much more like running two marathons a day, mentally. And thats when I felt overwhelmed with fear. How can this keep getting harder? Won't I crack? Won't I go insane? Do I even want to survive this torture? I'm paying for this???
On Wednesday, we had some visiting teachers from Texas, Joni and Mike. In their classes, the vents were open a little and their southern accents were calm and comforting. They never shouted, and I never thought about running out screaming. I enjoyed going deeper and deeper into the postures. Classes here at teacher training aren't normal. They try to push us past our limits. Luckily, they must realize that we do have limits and each class can't be that hard.
Friday we had a lecture from Ann Marie Benstrom, Bikram's "female guru." She is an amazing 78 year old Swedish woman who introduced some very radical ideas. She was beyond inspiring, and even Bikram sat and listened to her with full attention.
To end the week we had a lecture from Bikram that went on until 1 a.m., I think I got a lot out of it. I stayed awake for it, anyway.
I'm trying not to predict what's going to happen next or worry about it. I remind myself all the time why I wanted to come here, who made it possible, and who is holding the fort down for me while I'm away. Thanks for being interested! Take care of yourselves!
On Wednesday, we had some visiting teachers from Texas, Joni and Mike. In their classes, the vents were open a little and their southern accents were calm and comforting. They never shouted, and I never thought about running out screaming. I enjoyed going deeper and deeper into the postures. Classes here at teacher training aren't normal. They try to push us past our limits. Luckily, they must realize that we do have limits and each class can't be that hard.
Friday we had a lecture from Ann Marie Benstrom, Bikram's "female guru." She is an amazing 78 year old Swedish woman who introduced some very radical ideas. She was beyond inspiring, and even Bikram sat and listened to her with full attention.
To end the week we had a lecture from Bikram that went on until 1 a.m., I think I got a lot out of it. I stayed awake for it, anyway.
I'm trying not to predict what's going to happen next or worry about it. I remind myself all the time why I wanted to come here, who made it possible, and who is holding the fort down for me while I'm away. Thanks for being interested! Take care of yourselves!
posted by Heather @ 1:26 PM
1 Comments:
At 3:49 AM,
Ron Lawson said…
Let me ask you to think for a while on the place of kundalini yoga in its relation to two of the great Hindu schools of philosophical thought, for neither the Westerner nor the non-Sanskrit-knowing Indian can ever really understand the translations of the chief Indian books, now current here and in the West, and the force of all the allusions they make, unless they acquaint themselves in some degree with the outlines of these great schools of philosophy, they being the very foundation on which these books are built up.
Take the Bhagavad-Gita. Probably there are many who know that book fairly well, who use it as the book to help in the spiritual life, who are not familiar with most of its precepts. Visit hatha yoga
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